Thank you| Long post

 

Hello everyone! I’ve not been around much and i don’t think anybody has noticed lol but i just wanted to dedicate this post to all my friends and new people that took part in sending Christmas cards.

I want to say that i am sorry i didn’t write lovely words in your cards LOL i feel so guilty as i have had a few cards with really nice meaning.
But i wanted to dedicate a post to you all and i hope that makes up for it ha.

Secondly, the reason why i haven’t been around much is my depression and anxiety. It’s been scary and a tough journey the past few months or so and my mental health took a decline these past few weeks but i am on the mend and i am going to acknowledge i need some professional help – Something that i have declined for such a long time but after Christmas i am going to bite the bullet.
I’m also going to start going to church, i am not in any shape or form religious or a blessing from God, quite frankly i am more than likely going to hell! But i feel like i need to be around positive people and meet new friends.
The truth is, i am lonely. I have a boyfriend and a mum and the odd friend i meet up with for lunch once in a blue moon but i don’t have much social contact.
This has slowly declined over the years and partly because we all have lives of our own right? And another part being i stopped being included in outings and still don’t get included in anything. I want to change that, and hopefully people will like me? Maybe ill get accepted elsewhere i don’t know. But i know that i have lots of things to change.

Thirdly, http://www.twinklehook.co.uk no longer exists – For the time being. I started a venture on having a little business andย  boy is it hard. But with my mental health i think the time is right to not pursue my business until i feel 100%. My Twinklehook FB page will still be active because i did and do have all of my sales and customer contact that way, so i am still open to making things but only baby steps.
So over the Christmas holidays i am going to make my blog twinklehook.co.uk instead and all my crocheting will be here, NO selling just being in the craft moment with you guys again. I also have found my voice, my ‘who i am’ as a blogger. Let’s just throw it out into the air. I guess i am a bit of a mixture? So i guess lifestyle would suit me best, and i want to incorporate more beauty posts, crochet/craft posts, bullet journalling, AND EVEN GAMING!
I am a huge gamer, especially The sims and i want to share this with like minded people.

-ALSO, i’ve not crocheted in a long time. I’ve not picked up the hook and i haven’t wanted to. I’ve been getting lost in playing the sims, because this is just something i felt like i needed to do.
At the moment i hate crocheting, i can’t be arsed. 50% because of my depression, Lord knows how much stuff ‘i haven’t’ done because of it. And the other 50 is due to me needing a break. I’ve lost the heart and love for it, i no longer get excited at the sight of yarn or starting a new project. I pushed myself so much this year in crocheting orders and then some people have let me down, i have worked my brain and fingers until they can no longer cope.
I want to crochet for me, and because i love it. So this is why i am taking a break, recharging my batteries and hopefully over Christmas get back into it! I have some unfinished WIPS i want to finish before the new year.

 

Last but not least, the whole point of this post.

I want to thank each and everyone of my blogging friends for taking part and sending Christmas cards, even the people i don’t really know too much about. You have made me smile and feel so wanted as anyone else that has gotten a card (i hope) – The whole point in it was to make one another feel thought of, and smile. We all have our life stories and shitty moments and just sending a card as silly as it sounds can do the world of good.
I have made some amazing friends since starting this blog, and i can’t wait for years more of friendship and who knows in the future one HUGE ASS blogger meet up, i’m thinking Europe?! LOL
Thank you for making my year bearable, its been tough for me and i can’t imagine the toughness of some lives of others that don’t tend to share. Without this blog, even though i haven’t been active commenting I HAVE been reading. You are all so special and unique.

So i wish you all a very Merry Christmas and may 2018 be a huge success to you all!!

Speak soon, hopefully before Christmas.

xoxoxoxoxox

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Hey! I'm a 27 year old blogger, crafter, writer, cat lover and what ever else. I currently live with my boyfriend and cat in Stoke on Trent UK. I am currently writing a sci-fi novel and my passion for writing grows more more each day. I hope to be a published author and not sit on my work for years to come. I also spend a lot of time trying new crafts rather than perfecting just a few, but i love to get stuck in and try new things! You will find all sorts of hobbies on my blog, including snippets of writing!

16 thoughts on “Thank you| Long post

  1. I can’t remember if I told you that my card had arrived, but it did! Plenty of time before Christmas as well, go Royal Mail.
    I’ve talked a friend through (and I’m going through) depression and anxiety, and I know going for professional help can be the hardest step so well done you! I’d send a sticker if I could ๐Ÿ˜‰ I hope you know you’ve got a wee blogging family here, and you can always come to me if you need a chat.

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  2. You’re the best Rebecca!!!! Even when you might feel like everything is going to shit you still always make me smile with your emails and stuff. I am always so inspired by your honesty and I think you are so strong and brave when you write what is on your mind. I am so so so so so happy that I met you and have gotten to know you this past year and I can’t wait until the holiday madness is over so I can spend more time chatting with you buddy!!!! ๐Ÿ˜€ ๐Ÿ˜€ ๐Ÿ˜€ ๐Ÿ˜€

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  3. I have noticed that youโ€™ve been absent! I am glad that youโ€™re taking care of yourself. Many of us have gone (or continuously going) through depression and anxiety, so just know that you are not alone! We may not be going though exactly what you are, but we are here on the blogosphere for support ๐Ÿ˜Š.

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  4. I thought I had it all together for Christmas this year and then my laptop crapped out on me. Went completely dead! I could barely read anything on my phone… never mind try to write a blog post on there so I’ve been offline for a while. To make matters worse, my mom broke her hip about a week ago. Ugh! So I understand your depression. Mine just came from different sources than yours did. I have finally replaced my laptop. Here’s hoping that 2018 is better for both (all) of us! I’m planning on journaling both on and offline and one of my goals is to be more regular at blogging. Wish me luck. ๐Ÿ™‚

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    1. Oh wow! Laptops grrr I had to replace mine this year and they aren’t cheap! So sorry to hear about your mum I hope she’s on the mend, at least she won’t have to do any cooking at Christmas and just relax! I swear you have to plan the holidays in July just to get a head start ๐Ÿคฃ here’s to the new year being better and good luck with your new goals, I’m going to set mine when I crack open my new bullet journal. Take care x

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  5. Take care of yourself! We all need breaks ๐Ÿ™‚ I sent out the cards from the list just yesterday, so mine might be late unfortunately. I have been very busy at work and the Holidays. Hope it gets there by Christmas ๐Ÿ™‚

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