Hello everyone! I’ve not been around much and i don’t think anybody has noticed lol but i just wanted to dedicate this post to all my friends and new people that took part in sending Christmas cards.
I want to say that i am sorry i didn’t write lovely words in your cards LOL i feel so guilty as i have had a few cards with really nice meaning.
But i wanted to dedicate a post to you all and i hope that makes up for it ha.
Secondly, the reason why i haven’t been around much is my depression and anxiety. It’s been scary and a tough journey the past few months or so and my mental health took a decline these past few weeks but i am on the mend and i am going to acknowledge i need some professional help – Something that i have declined for such a long time but after Christmas i am going to bite the bullet.
I’m also going to start going to church, i am not in any shape or form religious or a blessing from God, quite frankly i am more than likely going to hell! But i feel like i need to be around positive people and meet new friends.
The truth is, i am lonely. I have a boyfriend and a mum and the odd friend i meet up with for lunch once in a blue moon but i don’t have much social contact.
This has slowly declined over the years and partly because we all have lives of our own right? And another part being i stopped being included in outings and still don’t get included in anything. I want to change that, and hopefully people will like me? Maybe ill get accepted elsewhere i don’t know. But i know that i have lots of things to change.
Thirdly, http://www.twinklehook.co.uk no longer exists – For the time being. I started a venture on having a little business and boy is it hard. But with my mental health i think the time is right to not pursue my business until i feel 100%. My Twinklehook FB page will still be active because i did and do have all of my sales and customer contact that way, so i am still open to making things but only baby steps.
So over the Christmas holidays i am going to make my blog twinklehook.co.uk instead and all my crocheting will be here, NO selling just being in the craft moment with you guys again. I also have found my voice, my ‘who i am’ as a blogger. Let’s just throw it out into the air. I guess i am a bit of a mixture? So i guess lifestyle would suit me best, and i want to incorporate more beauty posts, crochet/craft posts, bullet journalling, AND EVEN GAMING!
I am a huge gamer, especially The sims and i want to share this with like minded people.
-ALSO, i’ve not crocheted in a long time. I’ve not picked up the hook and i haven’t wanted to. I’ve been getting lost in playing the sims, because this is just something i felt like i needed to do.
At the moment i hate crocheting, i can’t be arsed. 50% because of my depression, Lord knows how much stuff ‘i haven’t’ done because of it. And the other 50 is due to me needing a break. I’ve lost the heart and love for it, i no longer get excited at the sight of yarn or starting a new project. I pushed myself so much this year in crocheting orders and then some people have let me down, i have worked my brain and fingers until they can no longer cope.
I want to crochet for me, and because i love it. So this is why i am taking a break, recharging my batteries and hopefully over Christmas get back into it! I have some unfinished WIPS i want to finish before the new year.
Last but not least, the whole point of this post.
I want to thank each and everyone of my blogging friends for taking part and sending Christmas cards, even the people i don’t really know too much about. You have made me smile and feel so wanted as anyone else that has gotten a card (i hope) – The whole point in it was to make one another feel thought of, and smile. We all have our life stories and shitty moments and just sending a card as silly as it sounds can do the world of good.
I have made some amazing friends since starting this blog, and i can’t wait for years more of friendship and who knows in the future one HUGE ASS blogger meet up, i’m thinking Europe?! LOL
Thank you for making my year bearable, its been tough for me and i can’t imagine the toughness of some lives of others that don’t tend to share. Without this blog, even though i haven’t been active commenting I HAVE been reading. You are all so special and unique.
So i wish you all a very Merry Christmas and may 2018 be a huge success to you all!!
Speak soon, hopefully before Christmas.